What exactly am I doing here? That is, what do You want me to do right now, right here, with what I have? Please do not leave these things up to my imagination alone. Be a lamp unto my feet, a guide for the path You would have me take.
Love, Your Son,
December 28, 2014
I had been unemployed for just over 2 months at the time I wrote this letter. Nobody I knew of was hiring around the holidays. At best, I was hoping I would have landed a job before mid-December. Now it was clear 2015 would roll in before hiring activity would pick up again. Financial issues were beginning to pile up.
Still, I wanted to know what God's plan was for me more than anything. More than finding a job at this moment, I wanted to know the good works for which He created me in Christ Jesus.*
The lesson would become clear over time; don't sit around waiting for a special calling before realizing how special is the calling you already received.
Sometimes, it's like walking into thick fog. I want to know what's ahead, but I can only see a few seconds into the future, that is, a mere couple feet into the distance.
Rather, this is the time to make sure my footing is solid. This is the time to focus on the Guide and not worry about the future, for He cares for me.**
For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
* For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. (Ephesians 2:8-10 ESV)
** Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. (1 Peter 5:6-7 ESV)